Theory of Relativity on 30 May 2010
, 2:43 PM
It's actually quite a cool theory. Really!
Well stemming from this title, I've had a chain of thoughts and it was really awesome.
So afraid that I'll forget it all at once, after much thought (mind the pun), I have decided to pen them down in my e-diary while it is still fresh in my head! :)
These series of thoughts began on this day, the second and unofficial final day of the Nat Canoeing Champs.
It's unofficial because I'm penning these thoughts simultaneously as races take place.
K.
My chain of thoughts, presented to you as chains of thoughts!
I'm on my way home in the bus.
I was on my way home when I thought of something lame at first.
Something I didn't like.
Actually, "didn't like" is an understatement: it was something I hated very much!
It was about my 10 hours of community service that I resented very much.
It's a long story how I landed myself into 10 hours of community services, maybe I'll tell you more in the unseen future.
NOW PRIOR TO THIS LINK, I was actually quite tired after short sprints up an 80m hill at Macritchie. So very tired.
To think I had to chase the bus because I didn't want to miss one that was charging to the next bus stop (I love chasing buses, maybe I do it "too" excessively).
I was breathless at the bottom of an overhead bridge, needless to say how shagged I felt after climbing it, then realising that my bus was arriving at the bus stop.
It was due to health reasons which I shall not disclose (omg, so many sekretsss!)
But these health reasons weren't on the list of my primary concerns until as recently as 5 months ago. That's last year, in 2009.
Yes, it was deteriorating and I was looking for a reason - I needed to pin the "cause" to "effect".
I started off by thinking when the deterioration started.
I figured it a few weeks before my first back operation in 2009, June.
Over-training, the epitome of excellence-in-the-making-but-will-never-be.
Health is Wealth.
I wanted to use it as a Facebook status, to see if anyone could infer the use of it, because it would be pointless to post it randomly. Anyway I figured the little significance of such and shrugged it aside, un-posted.
I wanted to point fingers.
I had sacrificed to much for my team - I like to believe that.
I know I did, but I know my team did not let me down, not completely at least.
Pushing them on was the best way I could help them, and I tried my very best to.
This is why it started.
But as a result, I couldn't handle the sheer drag of lifting the team to new heights and I gave way.
I broke.
I did not blame my team for this, I could only blame it on myself, at worst.
I was unworthy and I have let my parents down.
It's like a burden set upon people who have mattered to me so much.
I felt bad, but at the same time, I thought to myself, why go through the trouble?
Why go through the pain, suffering and misery?
It was for the better for everyone else, only to backfire, tilting the tables on myself.
Did they deserve it?
Did I deserve it?
The foreseen:
Bringing you back to community services, which I did not feel obliged to do as it was due to my absence from school without a "valid reason".
I was ill.
Why?
Because I wanted something so bad. So badly wanted to boost the school team standards in the sport.
So much that I fell ill.
Is that not valid enough?
Give me a break, please.
Its too early to die worthily.
All these in the name of
NOBILITY
This is what separates people.
We can classified into how noble we are.
There are three groups that I have thought of.
Purely unconditional. Self-beneficial unconditionalistic. Self-beneficial.
Most people belong to the second and third groups.
I was convinced that I'm between the first and second.
Would I sacrifice everything I had so that someone (anyone) can be better off?
Or would I want to build myself up such that I can help the same person to a greater extent of "better"?
Maybe I wouldn't even consider sacrificing anything I had.
Those were examples of the three group representations.
Bill Gates is one who has set up a charitable organisation, but would he give up his wealth for better health of the people?
While pondering on this, someone on the bus had failed to charge with his EZ-Link card because it was under-value. To my astonishment, the driver just pushed a button for the front doors to open, inviting the poor old man out. While the doors were opening, the man who had already intended to pay his fare by coins, dropped enough cents into the ticketing machine.
How selfish and rude of the driver! Why wouldn't you help someone in need? Because he can't afford your help? You need monetary payments?
ARE YOU HUMANE?
The rich getting richer may just well be the root of why the large amount of poor people are getting poorer. This is a question of nobility. It's not what you donate, it's how much you donate.
What does all that money mean to you? Such charitable contributions, or aid, are as worthy of how significant they are to you.
This brings me to
WORTHINESS
How worthy am I?
If there was a Theory of Worthiness, it would be tagged to a person's thoughts, intentions and actions.
It seems like it is tied to Nobility because whether or not a person is worthy (of good things) is dependent on how he treats others.
So this was where I got off the bus and took off into the dry weather.
It was bad.
I thought of the environment: our climate.
Is it because people enjoy too much luxury like air conditioning?
It's like karma, there is only so much good and bad energy which will come to haunt us eventually.
COINCIDENCES?
Somehow, this led me to think about how I should spend my time back home now that I've had some time off to rest while the rest of the team was training. I might have gone to the Church.
I thought of the different types of beliefs.
It seemed to be all the problems in the world had a link to whatever we believed in, whether or not ourselves or a "supreme-being".
The long-standing Atheism is actually more than meets the eye.
There are different degrees of Atheism.
My stand is: I can't say for sure if there are "supreme-beings" in the World, but I wouldn't dismiss the possibilities. Anything is impossible, really. Says who? Says the Theory of Relativity. I mean even so they wouldn't blame you for not believing in them. They can't say that it was tangible when it was not. We have to be convinced. At least a little. Maybe the lack of "true belief" is a flaw in humans, but even so, that is not a good reason to strike out non-believers. Sometimes we forget as well, that may well be another huge flaw to how difficult it is to convince humans.
K, on with my journey home:
I was thirsty.
My lips were dry and I convinced myself that I needed a drink.
I realised that I only had a dollar, quite short of a few cents to purchase sugar drinks from Cheers nearby.
I was pretty desperate for a drink when I thought that I couldn't afford it.
:(
I thought to myself, wow if only I had kept spare change somewhere, sort of like having a kind of habit to prepare "emergency money for emergencies".
While my brain was still in the influx-mode of BELIEFS, I told myself, hey if there was really a "supreme-being" out there, this is how you could convince me of your presence, help me out by providing me some cents.
I recalled that something like that happened when I wanted a set of notes so bad for revision, while my stuff was thrown around my room, only to pray really hard and when I turned to my shelf, it was just lying (almost unbelievably) on top of my books as if it were invisible a moment before.
Coincidentally, I reached for my right-back bag pouches. I knew I had a bottle of spare soap there. I was so sure there wouldn't be any coins there, because I don't remember leaving any coins in there as I have a habit of emptying my coins into a jar everyday.
I felt it anyway and to my amusement, and utter shock actually, I FELT COINS.
It wasn't just ten or twenty cents, it was a fifty cent coin that I loved to add to my coin collection and a ten cent coin. In all honesty, you can trust me on this, I'm still not totally convinced but this has swayed my beliefs a little, that there is Supremacy out there, somewhere.
Coincidence or not, I think it's just for you to think about this on your own. Next.
So I happily walked towards Cheers, but on thinking of how selfish I was to splurge on drinks so easily, I thought of how close I was to home. I could just get a nice chilled glass of plain water.
(Ever since Miss Ng told me of her dislike for unchilled plain water, I seem to have developed the same habit!!)
CHILLED WATER is awesome.
Yep so I was at the lobby when I noticed that the lift broke down.
Being in the tired state that I am in, I wished desperately that somehow I wouldn't have to climb so many flights of stairs home. To my delight, the other lift was in working condition :)
Haha THANK GOODNESS!
That's all there is to my chain of thoughts.
Ah, with the glass doors opened, it sure is relaxing to have a good flow of moderate wind to cool myself down.
Let's not forget that chilled glass of plain water! ;)
Nimbus Two Thousand on 14 February 2010
, 2:46 AMOnly songs I can relate to make me feel a tad better.
But even I know that doesn't cut it.
Hear my plea.
Save me ...Pop Princess.
I'm TALLER, & that's all that mattered on 12 February 2010
, 10:21 PMI'm sure females will always consider the height of the males, especially so in choosing a partner!
I'm officially TALLER.
Really, that's all that mattered.
3 months and counting on 20 March 2009
, 5:32 AMAfter canoeing, out of all the cold/hot water currents, my body was quite warm just as it should and would.
But it slowly developed into a fever (very unusual).
Could have been the Tom Yam banmian I had for lunch at Bishan.
Training was very fun and exciting today :)
I would say I'm disappointed that many J1s didn't turn up at MacRitchie today.
In the morning, I was there to finish up some Econs homework and revision before heading out for J8 to get lunch and then to study.
David, Adam, Mark, Clifford and I were there in the morning.
After lunch and slightly into the evening there was Mark, Clifford, Anthony and myself!
ONLY!
Where did the other 19 J1s go?
So now there's no training today and everyone missed out their chance on practising to gain stability on the K-canoes.
One-star course this Saturday (tomorrow) :)
And IJ band camp this week!
I intend to go down during lunch time :D:D
<3
Labels: Canoeing, Fever, Stability
Junior champs on 15 March 2009
, 9:11 PMI got to know my seniors more deeply and discovered that they're all pretty mischievous but nevertheless very well bonded together! (exception: Ping Xi who's always wondering around o:!)
It rained today and the races dragged for 3-4 hours so 'FINAL' events would be held next Saturday instead.
Oh, school tomorrow with Math in the morning and Chemistry don't know when.
I gave my classmates the wrong information about which lessons are tomorrow (I thought Econs was tomorrow too SRY GUYS I CANT BE BOTHERED TO REMIND YOU!)
Haha yup they trust and rely on mehhh tooooo muchzxz.
OVERVIEW OF THE WEEK
Gym training tomorrow then we're doing HITT sprints which are, apparently, a pain in the butt (literally - think cramps!)
Tuesday spells more water training (yay!)
But in the afternoon.
Wednesday - nothing much yet, one-star canoeing course was previously on this day but uh, postponed to next Saturday (I hope it doesn't coincide with the J. Champs Finals!! :c:c
Thursday more water training but in the morning :D:D
Morning training is coolbeans!
Friday training.
Wow everyday is training day! :)
Saturday FINALS AND AND AND ONE-STAR CANOEING COURSE YAY!
With proper certification we can advance into the deeper parts of MacRitchie :)
That's awesome so we can finally start training for our events next year.
Concluding, Ms Ng said (both yesterday and today) that we should train consistently and efficiently. We've got about a year or less of training, and less water training time so we must cherish and make FULL use of all the time we can get to train hard.
Strive, Reach and Pull!
Onward! :D
Labels: Canoeing, Junior Champs
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